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Archive for October, 2013

So many things have happened…

Posted in Uncategorized on October 22, 2013 by

So, here are some of the things that have been going on since I last had a chance to write:

-My awesome roommate and I got kicked out of our enormous apartment and had to find a new place to live and then move into said new place with only, like, four days notice.

-I got super stressed and depressed and freaked out by the apartment issues and moving and everything.

-Garnet was generally amazing and helped me cope so much.

-I’ve been working on getting back into therapy, since my amazing therapist left her job, leaving me therapist-less.  I’m also working on getting psych services for medication management, since my meds don’t seem to be working as well as once they were.

-In the midst of all the stress and awfulness, Garnet invited me to come visit and I had a really good time.  While I was there, we went to party and fun things happened.

-We had a really fun impact scene, involving exciting new toys like a cane made from a golf club that is delicious and thumpy and awesome.  I really really enjoyed the way they hurt me, and I feel like I’m way more aware of how I deal with pain since the pain processing class at TFW, and that has made me a better communicator.  I feel like each part of the scene went like this: warm up/slow ramp-up in beating, with me sighing happily and clutching at the St. Andrew’s Cross I was up against, and wiggling my butt and getting really turned on.  Then, more intense/more challenging pain, which I’ve come to realize makes me do a little foot stompy dance and make more noises.  After that, more intense impact (like sudden, hard cane or crop strokes), which make me scream and/or cry.  Anything after the foot-stompy-dance is hard to take.  Garnet brought me up to the edge and pulled back from it several times, and then finally we went past that place and I cried and then we wound down.  It was really, really yummy.  I love how in-tune we are when we play like this.  I just wish I could take more so they could  last longer.

-We had an amazing doll play scene, which is kind of hard to write about because I was in a very different headspace while it was going on and I don’t remember it super well.  Garnet had me take my clothes off and put on cute tights, then they had me hop up on a chair so they could do my makeup.  I started feeling really deliciously objectified when they started just setting their makeup case on my lap, like I was just part of the chair.  They did my makeup and clipped bows in my hair, and dressed me in a pretty, frilly dress.  They zipped little high-heeled boots on my feet and brought me around the party to show me off to their friends.
My vision was unfocused and I wasn’t really in my body, only vaguely  aware of what was going on.  I concentrated on a verse of poetry if/when it felt like my headspace might be slipping.  It was very…meditative.

The weirdest part was that, while I was in doll space, my feet didn’t hurt at all and I could walk in my boots just fine.  As soon as Garnet brought me out of it, my feet were killing me and I had trouble walking.  I’ll be interested to see if this is a thing that continues…

-The next day we went to a Pride festival thingy, and it was very fun (though crowded) and we located an alley full of leather folk and people we knew were doing demos!  So Conall caned me.  Among other things, he used an antique shoe horn, and it made me feel like a naughty maid, and it was very fun.   I wish I could’ve taken more, but I was still super sore from my scene with Garnet the night before.  After, I was kind of worried if I said how much I enjoyed it that Garnet would be hurt/jealous, but they were actually pretty delighted.  I feel like this was a significant and important thing for me to experience.

-Garnet and I snuggled a lot, and had important talks, and watched movies.  It was really good to spend time together.

So yeah…things are starting to settle a bit after suddenly moving.  I want to try to get back on track, both mental health-wise and submission-wise before work gets really crazy with holiday stuff.  Wish me luck!